Sam's Issues! (Not Leaving or Away)

[Sam Winchester (NPC)]

Hey Everyone,

I just wanted to post this. Some of you may care, some of you may not, it might be TMI for some of you but I felt that I just needed to say something.

I know that I am not the best with keeping up with things. With threads or even getting things done quickly. I'm fairly slow paced most of the time. I also have a very hard time staying on track.

Not to get too deep into it, but I have some issues that I have to deal with all the time, everyday of my life. Things like depression, serious anxiety issues/panic attacks, sleep disorder, A.D.D., and things like that. I could give you a laundry list of crap but that's all it would be is crap.

The bottom line is I have a hard time keeping up with things sometimes. I need to be organized, but actually being organized is something that my brain doesn't do well. Things are always jumbled. I lose track of what I'm doing. I forget things. I can't focus. Sometimes I get hyper-focused on one thing and don't see other things.

The point is, this affects me and how I post and other things on the board. Even admin duties. Sometimes I can't post at all, sometimes I can post to certain things (usually because it's an easier character for me to write for), sometimes I do OK and get all my posting done.

Sooooo... Unless I get some kind of personal assistant to keep me on track, it's just something that I have to deal with. It is nothing personal against ANYONE on the site if anyone feels like I'm neglecting them or their character or a thread or anything like that.

With all that being said, I don't mind if anyone periodically prods me to post or even admin stuff if I'm slow on things. Really, sometimes I just don't remember things so a reminder is not a bad thing. I would just appreciate that it doesn't end up being harrassing. But, trust me... If I think you're harassing me, I'll let you know.


Anyway...

Right now I'm not even sure WHAT I need to do and get done. What threads I'm in that are waiting on me, that are still active. Like there are some threads that I'm not sure if we want to continue or if we just want to end them. I'm really trying but it's very hard for me. I KNOW I need to make a thread tracker thing, but that's one of those things that I just haven't gotten a chance to do. I either forget about it or I'm busy doing something else like trying to post.


You can take all this however you want. Like I said, some of you will care, some of you won't. Some of you will see it as just an excuse or whatever. But, I just wanted to put it out there.

So to those of you that do care, thanks for understanding.


Sam


My characters:

Sam Winchester
Jo Harvelle
Jordan Taylor (not active)
Savannah Silva (not active)

(I think that's all)

[Deleted]

Aww, Sam. Maybe I shouldn't tackle you so much in the cbox... or make you pull demons with your brain... uh... I mean... Crap. Forget I said that last part...

Well, I care, being your second-in-command type person. As far as posting goes, I haven't been as active either lately. But that's because all my classes ganged up on me along with a cold to make my brain spin out for a bit. The cold's still happening and there's a small lull in homework so I'm attempting to catch up, and hopefully once I do I'll be set.

But, anyways. For threads I have a tracker to keep track of when they happened for my characters, but to keep track of where I need to post when I just use the bookmarks. So when I start a new thread I bookmark it and just go to my profile and check my bookmarks to see what I have to reply to. It helps me not forget what threads I have and stuff, and I just update the tracker whenever I get the time to so I don't get too far behind in figuring out when things happened. Then once I finish a thread I unbookmark it. I don't know if that'll help you or not, but it helps me not neglect or forget about threads. With all the characters I have I totally would forget otherwise.

You could also have a thread or even a board in the Staff section that was just for you to organize what you're doing. Like a to-do list. Hmm. Maybe we should both have those so we can keep track of what we have to do... I'm gonna hold that thought and get back to it in a minute.

As far as admin stuff, maybe we should organize our duties a little better as far as who does what? Like, for advertising I could keep the master list up-to-date with the link-backs and first-links and stuff, make sure our ad's up on those sites then move them into the other board, and you could do that with the affiliates (since I'd probably mess up the coding doing that lol). Character applications I think we should both do since we give better feedback that way. But things like each of us having definite jobs we do instead of both of us doing everything. Then if one of us needed a break - like I did the past week or so with homework and sickness and crap - we can let the other one know so they know to pick up the slack for that time. Now I'm babbling, but would that help?

And I think it'd help both of us if we each had our own section in the Staff category that was just our space to keep ourselves organized. So if you needed to you could have Sam's Board and have a bunch of sub-boards if you wanted to keep all your stuff organized.. however it is you'd do that. And I could make one too and keep my stuff organized. We could make like lists of what we want to do/need to do and cross things off as we do them or whatever.

Babble babble babble.

[Sam Winchester (NPC)]

Yeah... For me having specific duties would be helpful. The bookmark thing would probably help, but my problem wth that is that I FORGET to put the bookmark on. LOL.

I like the idea of having a section or our own sections in staff to try and organize ourselves with stuff to do... But again, with like the bookmarks and making the thread tracker, actually getting the organization done is hard for me. But it does help to have a to do list specifically for myself, it just a matter or making the list.

[ZZZ - Dean - RETIRED]

*makes a to do list for Sammy, 'cause I'm helpful like that*

1.) Buy a cheeseburger with extra onions and some cherry pie for your awesome brother because I missed lunch.
2.) Go on a laundry run, 'cause your socks reek dude. You might as well take mine while you're at it.
3.) Whilst waiting for laundry to finish, go to the store and stock up on salt and first aid stuff. And M&M's. Peanut of course.
4.) Collect laundry.
5.) Fill the car up with gas after all that driving around.
6.) Find time in the middle of all that to research our next hunt while I take a well earned afternoon nap.

Dean

On a more useful note...I think I know you well enough after all this time to already know your posting patterns and you should also know I'm cool with them. Sometimes I have trouble getting my brain into gear to remember where I need to be too and I think everyone has trouble with muse from time to time, so don't sweat it.

I'll happily poke you with a stick when I think you might have forgotten about something, any old excuse to do that. I have a stick with your name on it as it happens...

*writes Samantha on a stick with my trusty sharpie*

As far as I'm aware, or rather the only thread that we're doing together at the moment, you're up in the Man Down thread. I'm guessing you guys are carrying on that one while me and Li are elsewhere being romantic. If you're not, or you're wanting to start a new thread to carry on from where it's currently at like we've done in the bedroom, then just let me know when you're ready for us to come back in. Don't want to have had a big long scene upstairs and then return to that one as though only five minutes has passed, y'know?

Anyway, I think I've babbled enough. Oh wait, no I haven't. I just thought of this now, so I haven't talked to Ruby about it, but are you interested in putting Lucifer!Sam into the thread with Brody and Ruby playing checkers in 2014? (Think its called Checkmate) The only reason I thought of it, was I wanted to see how Brody reacted around him, since he does work for him even if he has no real choice about it. And oh look...I seem to have gone off at a tangent to what this thread was orginally about.....

*shuts up now*

*starts talking again now I remembered something else....*

You're up in Twist and Turn too...

[Sam Winchester (NPC)]

Ok... just wanted to add to this I guess. I'm sorry for not being around much. I'm not doing that great. My dad is sick... My mom's stressed. I didn't think I was that worried but I guess I am.

And I'm really sorry if it just seems like I've always got excuses. I'm just not good at dealing with life sometimes. Probably more information than you really wanted to know but that's the bottom line.

So... I'll try to get back into it as soon as I can.

[Deleted]

-big smooshie Ruby hugs-

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope all goes well with your parents, and if there's anything I can do let me know.

You've been picking up the slack left and right for me the past few weeks, so don't feel bad about taking a break for a bit if you need one. We could put your characters as Away if you need a few weeks. Just let me know where you're at and I'll take care of everything as far as notifying everyone and whatever else.

As far as plots you're in, if you want them to move on without you we can find a way to write you out. If you want us to put them on hold until you get back, we can discuss that. I'm mainly talking about Twist and Turn, the Sick Dean plot (whichever thread you guys are on now), and Cannonball Run. Since Cannonball Run involves Jo and Ellen heavily and directly, I'd suggest we wait to continue that until you're all set. As far as the other two, it seems like Sam could slip out of either of them easily if need be. This is only if you're going to be away for more than like a week, of course. And if you literally just need to cut yourself off from here quickly and indefinitely, for whatever reason, just let me know and I'll work all that out with everybody.

This is just me thinking of all possible scenarios here, not because I'm assuming anything. I just want you to worry as little about this as possible.

[Sam Winchester (NPC)]

Seriously.... Life sucks ass and people are mean and deceitful.

I'll get around to posting when I can.

I'm sorry. It's no one on this site causing the problem, but it's affecting me.

[ZZZ - Dean - RETIRED]

*loads up a shotgun*

Just tell me who and where they are and I'll go kick ass. I've always got your back Sammy.